Thoughtful
Thoughtful
I’m feeling a bit like a caterpillar going through a metamorphosis lately. Everything seems like it’s shifting and morphing into something new, but the truth is that the layers I’ve built up around me..for protection, out of fear, from frustration, out of hurt..they are falling away and the person that I’ve always been inside is being revealed, piece by piece.
But still, I always have this fear inside.
That I’m not enough. That I’m not smart enough. That I’m not funny enough. That I’m not pretty enough. That I don’t give enough.
That I’m too much. That I’m a know it all. That I push my humor too much. That I’m too big. That I’m too needy. That I give too much.
Too much…not enough. I don’t know what will quell this fear. But something in me tells me that the answer won’t even be necessary when the last remnants of my shell fall away.
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I wish i could feel like that. right now i feel stuck in a never ending situation. like i can't break free from it. i know it's just my fears that keep me in it. that's what frustrates me the most. i've always been a strong person but lately i don't know where that person is anymore.
We all go through highs and lows…I think we all have a mild kind of bipolar disorder, depending on how affected we are by our situation. You'll find your groove. It took me a long time to find mine, too.
That's very brave of you to acknowledge what you are capable of doing and what you're not capable of doing. And as much as we try to be a different person, we can't fight that. Naturally our true colors will reveal itself. Wishing you well!
Here's a note: Everything in moderation girlie…… We learn from our life experiences everyday and this is what makes us who we are, but it is a neverending process. If you love and respect yourself, as I know you do, your quest of soul searching will only reveal what a beautiful person you are – in and out = ) luv you! <3