I think I’m not alone when I say this has been an extremely challenging year. I’m really going to try to get back into the swing of things here because the truth is that I need a creative outlet where I can talk about what’s happening in my life and the world, at large. Since I’m still uninsured, therapy is out of the question, and hosting is...

This thought keeps smacking me in the face at the most inopportune times.  Sometimes it really is like a slap; It catches me off guard and brings me to attention like the crack of a rifle very near.  Other times it is more like a seductive caress creeping in through the corners of my thoughts. “You need to organize your time as well as space. You are...

I’ve become a master at the mask. It’s not a mask to hide treachery, or a mask to hide true intentions. But it does hide the truth. It does hide the sneer when I change my clothes. The fat, everywhere, spilling all around me. Choking me, hiding me, keeping me from being. It swallows me whole and buries me alive. It does hide the ambivalence when I look in...

So, I got my pap results today, and I feel like the most blessed woman in the world.  The results were completely normal. No abnormal cells, no HPV, which often causes cervical abnormalities, and no further treatment necessary.  I can let go of that fear and focus on the wonderful chaos of being a working Mommy again.  Thank you for every one of your prayers and...

Another day, another drama. Last year I found out about a sliding scale women’s clinic in Dade City, and since I don’t have health insurance offered through my employer, and I can’t afford an individual plan and still provide for my family, I was thrilled to discover an affordable way to take responsibility for my health. So I went in April of...

I really loved being pregnant.  Well, maybe not the first time so much, since I was all of 16 and so sick that my mother thought I was bulimic.  But my girls in my belly made me feel closer to whatever force of good I identified with spiritually at the time than anything else I’ve ever experienced, and made me feel more feminine that I ever have since.  I still...