I think I’m not alone when I say this has been an extremely challenging year. I’m really going to try to get back into the swing of things here because the truth is that I need a creative outlet where I can talk about what’s happening in my life and the world, at large. Since I’m still uninsured, therapy is out of the question, and hosting is...

I’ve been somewhat thoughtful, as I navigate the treacherous waters of non-traditional student-hood during finals week.  I’ve learned a lot in the last several months.  My favorite class was my Intro to Humanities class, which amuses me because I put meeting my school’s humanities requirement off until nearly the very end because I expected to...

I’m a little out of my element right now. I spent years with a very flexible schedule, and now I have a regular hour type office job. I am really enjoying the job though, in part due to working with Marla, who is training me to take over part of her responsibilities while she heads out west to start a new Tulsa office for the business. She’s smart and...

I wasn’t always the anxiety-ridden control freak that I am today. When I was young, I was very laid back. It was something that most likely drew Brian to me throughout the years of our pre-romantic friendship. The irony that the way our relationship fell to pieces is what catalyzed my journey into anxiety and controlling behaviors is not lost on either of us. I...

I’ve become a master at the mask. It’s not a mask to hide treachery, or a mask to hide true intentions. But it does hide the truth. It does hide the sneer when I change my clothes. The fat, everywhere, spilling all around me. Choking me, hiding me, keeping me from being. It swallows me whole and buries me alive. It does hide the ambivalence when I look in...

So, I fucked up royally at work and lost my job. I don’t want to talk about what or why or how, and some of those questions I couldn’t answer anyway because I just don’t know…let it lie with I screwed up, and the natural consequences of that suck, but are necessary, and deserved. I’m actually relieved. I haven’t been effective for...